Improving is about not giving up.
I feel that art is overwhelming, its something so immense, so abstract, so godly that getting remotely close to actually mastering any of its endless nuances feels unobtainable.
At a certain degree it is, but what i have been noticing for the past ...humm... almost two years now... is that, the only way you can climb the next step in this endless staircase is not to give up while you are about to fall from the step you are into.
You are drawing something, and it feels wrong, it feels bad, and you erase it, you draw it again, and it looks even worse and you twist it, bend it, erase it, do it again, then its really horrible, and lastly you say: screw this, i give up, its over, no point because i cant do it.
And you give up on the entire piece, and all the effort, all the struggle, the horror was in vain, went down the drain.
When you are about to do this, don't.
Make it work, whatever it takes, eventually you WILL make it work! And then, oh, it feels great! You stepped it up, you climbed the step, you learned how to and your ready. For what? Well...the next step. And its all over again.
Don't give up.
Note to self